Moods ... Moments

So I had the gastric bypass 2/7. I hadn't really told anyone and am not making it a huge deal about telling anyone now. However if they notice or ask so be it, I have nothing to hide. It's been three weeks today since the surgery and I've lost 30lbs. Im feeling a lil nauseated but ok.

The first 3 weeks were the most difficult because it was liquid only. I wanted to eat so bad. Im hoping the next three weeks will be a lil easier due to I can have pureed foods. Mashed some potatoes today, it helped with the flavor I miss. I didn't realize I had such an intimate relationship with food. I didn't realize at 300lbs that my life was so centered around how food made me feel. You would think that I did or would have noticed but when you are so busy making yourself feeling better with flavors of onion, garlic and textures from mac n cheese or grilled chicken who had time to notice?

It's good though, just alter my previous recipes once I can eat again and enjoy just very litte. Im not eating to live not living to eat. Im getting used to it as it is taking me 15mins to eat 6oz of yogurt. This constant sweet tast that I have also doesn't help either. I heard it will pass. Im looking forward to the new me! I made the decision to have the surgery because of my health. I had high blood pressure and diabeties. My sugar was getting out of control with every bite and my blood pressure wasn't leveling off. They were just adding and adding medication to my steady diet of no good! This was the best decision for me and so far my blood pressure is looking great and my diabeties is under control. It's only a matter of time before Im off the last two meds.

Well continue on this rant and rave of a journey with me ... Im sure there will be up and downs. Good days and bad days. There will be love shared/recieved and lost. This is only the beginning of the new and healthier me.

Mood today ... if I had to do it all over again, I wouldn't! I miss food!