The Wedding ...

I thought I would be jealous and not want to be at the wedding of the century, however I had a nice time. I am so glad that I attended. My girlfriend look beautiful, her husband was as dashing as a man should be on his wedding day. And to my surprise he was bashful. I couldn't be more proud to have been an attendee ... I am happy for them.
I did realize however, due to age and so on and so forth, I used to think I wantd to get married in Vegas cut out all the spending and what it would cost to be married here in church. However I wouldn't do it anyother way with out friends and family and more importanly the CHURCH! Not that God isn't watching over Vegas, but it isn't an option for me any more. I want a church wedding!
Now anyone who doesn't know me would wonder why this is such a big deal that I am putting it in writing however it is and for me it is and very important. Now although I am not looking for love, doesn't mean that I dont' want to be loved. And although I am not in a relationship doesn't mean that I dont' think about it. I miss being wanted and needed by someone other than my children. However the next time around, will be worth the ride. It's always greater later isn't it?